Stars: 3 out of 5
This is a hard book to review. I’m not sure if I liked it or hated it, to tell the truth. The narrative is a jumbled mess with the concept of an unreliable narrator pushed to the limit. It did, however, leave an impression on me, and that’s usually an indication that it’s a good book even if it’s not really a book for me.
Let’s talk positives first, shall we? The prose is beautiful. The author knows her way with words and how to paint an immersive picture. It’s beautiful and haunting at the same time. The descriptions worm into your mind and slowly seed a sense of malaise the longer you read the book. Things aren’t quite right, you can feel it, but most of the time, you can’t really put your finger on what’s wrong. This is a psychological horror story, so there will be no jump scares and splatter gore, and it’s exactly how I like my horror books.
However, this book is also a jumbled mess, which makes it confusing and frustrating, and you don’t get all the answers by the end of it.
The biggest issue I had was the split timeline. We get the Before chapters following the 10-year-old David dealing with the disappearance of his grandfather and then his slow descent into a full-blown psychotic break. But we also have the After chapters that follow David as he is trying to retrace his grandfather’s steps and find the door he used to escape this world.
Problem is, at the beginning of the book, we don’t know that the After chapters and the Before chapters are about the same person, and we have no emotional connection to the narrator. So I didn’t really care about what happened to this strange person running from some pursuers in a very strange world. It was, as I already mentioned, confusing and even a bit irritating.
I liked the chapters with young David the best. I can relate to his struggle to accept that his grandfather is gone, especially since he was the only person who talked to the kid. I mean, the rest of his family sure didn’t. I was a lot less invested in the older David, even though I could empathize with his slow unraveling.
I think my biggest issue is that the After chapters are pretty much useless to the story. If I understood well, they were just hallucinations born from DAvid’s broken mind during a dissociative state. There were no doors to other worlds, no strange liminal land called Mothtown. Or was there? There is no clear answer to that.
Also, if all of this was just in David’s head during a mental breakdown, what of all the vanishing people? Is that real? Or is that also part of his delusion? There is never a resolution to that particular plotline. It just gradually disappears from the narrative.
All in all, even though I loved the prose of this book, the story was way too confusing and jumbled for me to enjoy fully. I don’t mind working for my answers, but I need to get at least some of them by the end of a book.
PS: I received an advanced copy via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.